by Jessica Jaruczyk
(Clark, NJ USA)
My name is Jessica Jaruczyk and I live in Clark, NJ. I am going to be 41 next month and just recently had a failed IVF. I had two children naturally from a prior relationship. My husband and I concieved naturally when I was 29 and had a healthy baby boy at 30. Two years later while still nursing I concieved naturally and we had a baby with Trisomy 18. He passed away 26 days after birth Then for 7 years we tried to concieve but could not. We pretty much gave up.
After a physical, my doctor told me that I was very anemic and low in vitamin D. I decided to take a natural form of iron and D3 as well as to eat organic meats and foods. To my surprise about 8 months later I became pregnant and was told my progesterone was low but my HCG looked really good, however I miscarried at 8 weeks (September 2, 2012).
At that point I started researching and my husband and I did a cleanse and eliminated all sweets from our diet as well as dairy and enriched flours. We only ate organic friuts, vegetables, chicken, turkey and certain fish. I began drinking coconut milk and continued taking my new chapter prenatals. I made sure my creams and makeup were organic or at least natural.
I added a filter in my shower and only drink filtered water in a BPA free bottle. I tried to become the most healthy I could. We even tried acupuncture for a month with a Chineses herbalist in NY but it was getting expensive and the distance was inconvenient, so we could not continue.
We decided to go to a fertility clinic as my insurance covered IVF. They ran tests and found that I had a high prolactin levels (32) and sent me for an MRI. It confirmed that I had a small prolactinoma (about 3cm) and they put me on Bromocriptine to lower my levels. They did say however that I had a good number of egg reserve.
They said that my husband had poor sperm motility and morphology and because of my age and the Prolactinoma that our best bet was IVF with ICSI. I was uncomfortable with all the drugs being that I had worked so hard to get healthy but we went ahead with the IVF, but without the ICSI as we were not comfortable with that. We got 12 eggs and 9 fertilized naturally. We transferred on January 3, 2012, 2 embryos and were told that my uterus looks great but they did not implant, we did not freeze any. It did not work and now I am trying to cleanse myself of all the drugs. I purchased the natural fertility cleanse kit, ovuwise and am doing fertility massage with castor oil from the natural fertility shop. I am not sure what else to do. After paying for medications and cleanses and organic foods and vitamins the money belt is getting tighter.
Please if you can please help me and give me some direction. My husband wants to go back to his pre trying diet and enjoy a glass of wine because he doesn't think it will make a difference if we got pregnant in July without making changes, but I keep telling him lets try one more month. People tell me I should be happy I have children and I am blessed, but I would really love to have another healthy child. It has been extremely difficult to get past the death of our son who passed away in my arms and I just about gave up when I got pregant again 7 years later.
When I heard the heartbeat I cried just to go back the next week and be told we are miscarrying. Miscarrying was like an old wound being reopened and kicked. I still have a strong desire to have another baby.
I wish I was closer to RI but I am not and really can not afford the travel or continuous acupuncture which I would love to do again. Any direction or suggestions would be greatly appreciated. Also I work as a teacher for children with autism and my job is challenging and at times stressful. I just thought I should add that in, not sure if it has any relevance.